Yesterday I published a post all about a new series on my blog called ‘Loving You’ and this post is the first in that series. The prompt is ‘write a letter to your 16 year old self’. This is a bit scary as I find it hard to believe that I was 16 a whole 5 years ago… After I finished sixth form I did a year at uni before dropping out and going back to college at the age of 19 with people that were only 16, therefore I basically spent the last two years thinking I was 3 years younger and it’s kinda a problem now haha! Anyway, here goes…
Dear 16 year old Lauren,
You think you know exactly what you want, but you couldn’t be more wrong. The next 5 years aren’t going to be easy, but it’ll be so worth it. Keep your head held high and never doubt yourself, because you will end up in the right place at the right time and everything works out just fine. Don’t get me wrong it’s not going to be easy and you will want to quit, but you’re going to grow so much over the next few years and learn so much about yourself.
Keep believing that everything happens for a reason, and the saying about getting a hundred no’s and rejections at auditions before you get a yes is all too true, before you even get into the industry. But when you do get that yes, it feels amazing when you know it was worth the wait.
Enjoy dancing for you, for fun, and make the most out of all the training you’re getting, you’ll appreciate it even more later on. Cherish all those dance friends, and stop caring so much about what everyone else thinks. The friends you have now won’t be friends forever, it’s sad but it’s true. What seems like a big deal to you now won’t matter in 5 years time. It’s much nicer to have a few select close friends where distance doesn’t matter, than to stay in a group that doesn’t really work once you’re not forced to spend every day at school together. Stay true to you and stand up for yourself. You’re not a bad friend, and don’t let anyone make you believe otherwise.
You’re going to make a lot of big decisions over the next few years that will shape the course of the beginning of the rest of your life, including going to uni as a back up plan, then dropping out of uni, going back to college, getting kicked out of college and then starting a new college/uni, but don’t worry, it’s a fun ride! You’ll have a few work dramas, friend dramas and experience grief for the first time. These 5 years will be the most challenging so far, but that’s what growing up is all about, and it’s definitely not all bad. Oh, and don’t stress so much about that Fashion course because once you leave sixth form it basically never gets brought up again. Unless we’re saving that for even further in the future…
Start getting excited for the future because it starts now and it’s an adventure and a half and I’m not even out the other side yet. Keep believing in yourself, I know you do deep down but it’s ok to be more vocal about it! You’re about to start living your best life, so hang in there and hold on tight.